lol! ALL of this is trueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
of the doubt.
I stopped giving that shit eons ago.
I have too much faith in the human race.
I often imagine the good in everyone being their go-to persona.
I often create events of perfection in my head that align with what my desires are.
I often fall into naivete, especially when I know the person’s potential.
I often collide head-on with reality.
Can’t everybody be the best they can be?
Can’t everyone put forth 110% effort?
Can’t everyone want the very best for themselves?
Can’t everyone see things from my perspective…
skewed as it may be.
Anyways, I say all that to say this:
Nothing surprises me anymore.
Stability & reliability are too much to ask for these days, eh?
I have this bad habit of giving my last to those who don’t deserve it.
I expect the best out of everyone.
I expect friends to treat their friends with more care than they would the average stranger on the street.
I expect, I give, I push, I hope…
Then, naturally…there’s nothing left for myself.
& I never complain.
*drops curtain on that era*
A change is gonna come. Bet your life on it.
& i don’t know how I’m gonna pull this off..since I’ve never been selfish before.
But I am. & it’s gonna feel good as fuck.
HOW’S IT GOIN DOWN
A successful one, anyway.
And education isn’t merely textbooks….let’s clear that up now.
Street smarts are JUST as valuable.
However, I must say…book smarts weigh heavily with me.
School is not for everyone. This is true.
But it’s for ANYONE who wishes to pursue anything with me.
I take pride in my education, and I feel as though a college education is minimum.
A while ago, I made this statement and people felt as though I was closed-minded.
They felt as though it was “ignorant”…and asked if it was a deal-breaker. I wasn’t sure.
EDUCATION IS EVERYTHING TO ME.
And not being college-educated does not make anyone any less of a person,
I can’t be with anyone who isn’t in school or who has no desire to be in school.
We aren’t on the same path. We aren’t equally yoked.
Your street smarts won’t pay the bills. And if they do, it’s most likely questionable.
I won’t partake of that either.
There’s something to be said about a college student or someone going back to school, adamant on reaching their goals. They know where they want to end up in life, and the work that it will take to get there. I commend thee.
Education does NOT equal stability but the odds weigh heavier on that side.
Education is so important to me, that I just can’t wake up everyday to someone who doesn’t share those sentiments.
So yes, being okay with being uneducated IS a deal-breaker.
& I don’t apologize for my feelings.
have been running through my mind.
Firstly, let’s talk about how much I wish I hadn’t come to PUC at this point.
Adventist colleges will FUCK YOU SIDEWAYS. DARE someone to disagree.
Also, I want to write more.
That’d be nice.
I just need a little inspiration.
That’d be nice.
Why do people get excited about Bachelor’s Degrees?
That should come standard..
Nipple rings hurt like a bitch..
Never let anyone convince you they don’t.
The man at the piercing shop, (customer) & the woman there (employee) both have their nips done.. they both assured me it didn’t hurt.
I knew better… but I didn’t listen.
I should have.
These shits hurt then, and they kinda sting now if I lay on em.
No more piercings for me.
I’m going to Coachella….!
One of my friends and I got tix due to his friend being clutch.
So, I get to swoon over Frank Ocean.
I’m coming home thursday!
Who’s getting me from the airport? LAX btw, not ONT.
I’ve had it w. PCs & Droids. Simple yet faulty.
My mother is really the love of my life. I don’t know where I’d be without her.
Cherry Lime Margaritas are delicioso.
Ciroc is peligroso.
My next sentence is ironic, given the previous, but it’s truthful.
I need to get serious about my salvation.
Pray for my grandmother, please.
DC is looking closer & closer everyday.. Can’t wait to move.
& Congrats to my bestfriend Imani, on your engagement. I cant wait for the wedding.
giving into the vast majority of my worldly, carnal, debauch desires.
I mean that in the least whore-ish way possible.
But honestly. ONE summer fling is in order.
I have no idea w. whom, but…
& I’ll never dwell on it again.
Well, before I end this.. I should say that I reserve certain acts for sig. others, so maybe..
My morals won’t let me be great lol
this wont come to be after all.
It would be nice though.
I’m just talking shit.
No really, before the slander ensues, hear me out.
I realize that…certain things are just beyond my control.
No matter what I want or how much I want it….
I’ve gotta wait.
Which is fuckshit because, as a Sagittarius, I usually get what I want. Fast.
Now Chill, contrary to popular belief, is not complete submission to the less exciting…
In my case, Chill is liberation.
Liberation from my thoughts, my desires.
From my expectations, from my frustration, from…
I be over shit.
By choosing to adopt Chill as my own, I have decided to let life take its toll.
I’m letting go.
What will be, will be.
& What ain’t, ain’t got shit to do w. me.